This is a blog dedicated to my "mindful" life. Each week there will be at least one posting to share about a variety of topics like: books I'm reading, recipes I'm loving, and tips of what I've been working on in my mindfulness practice throughout the week. Perhaps you will find something that might inspire you to live more mindfully. Enjoy!

Monday, November 1, 2010

Does money buy you happiness?


I used to think so.



I grew up in my elementary school years in a family that didn't have very much money. My mom, sister, and I were on food stamps—we ate government cheese and drank powdered milk. I remember one Thanksgiving where we thought we wouldn't have enough money to buy a turkey. Calvary Lutheran Church came to the rescue and delivered the fixings for a full turkey meal to our front door.



In addition to not having very much money for food, we didn't have very much money for “stuff”. I longed for a pair of real Nike tennis shoes, but had to settle for a cheap (Kinney's Shoes) imitation for which I was teased by my 6th grade classmates.




That shit sticks with you.

As a young adult I realized that money had power. I could buy myself things that I wanted--shoes, purses, watches...I couldn't get enough. I used to “toodle” around the mall, looking for objects to make me happy.

And guess what? I never found happiness in the shopping mall.

Without going into the painful details, I got into a lot of debt. I hid my spending in my trunk of my car and away from my husband. Eventually those things come to haunt you.



What I realized is that I was seeking meaning in my life and I thought I would find it in the next, newest thing. In the process I discovered my life's purpose could not be found in things.

$40,000 in debt and a one year stint in Debtors Anonymous later I realized I was looking...searching for something. 12 step programs often claim that you have a hole in your heart the size of Jesus.



I didn't find Jesus , but I started meditating and eventually became a Buddhist. I found meaning in my life through the process of being aware. I was able to look at my feelings and my experience with new eyes. I explored the physical sensations and craving to spend money with mindfulness.




I found it interesting that a recent study explored if a certain salary would make you happy. Would you be more happy or less happy with a higher salary? The study claimed that the closer you got to making $75,000, the happier you were—because it is comfortable to not struggle to pay your bills and to have a little to spend on yourself.

The study found, however, once your earnings EXCEED $75,000, you begin to suffer more. You have attachment associated with your earnings. You become fearful of losing your job and anxious about making less money.

The question is What is the answer—will money buy you happiness?

The answer for me is:
Happiness is not found in things
I don't find a sense of purpose in what I have
Spending money on an experience is more fulfilling than a new pair of shoes
Feelings are impermanent. When I explore feelings of craving or desire, they will pass.



The good news is that five years later my debt is paid off, I'm in a happy (and honest) marriage, I have a healthy savings account and my meditation practice is strong.

I am content.


Thursday, September 9, 2010

Enjoy the silence





I am a complete insomniac—I have been since I was a teenager. I often wake up in the middle of the night for hours on end and cannot fall back asleep. It's not fun, but I've come to accept that it's just a part of my life.

Last week, while I was in the “sleep free” zone, I laid on the couch and as I was sitting there, I had a realization:

This must be what true peace feels like.

There were no emails, no phone calls from work, I don't have to “go” anywhere or “do” anything, I don't need to interact.

This must be peace.

I sat there for about an hour and enjoyed in the silence. There was this feeling of being safe.

I, like many, am too plugged in and too available. You are almost guaranteed to get a hold of me anytime of the day. That's the danger of having a blackberry—or really any kind of smart phone. I've been struggling a lot recently with this 21st century notion of availability and I have even contemplated getting rid of my blackberry.


I often wonder “what is so important at work that you are calling me on my day off?” or “why are you expecting me to respond so quickly?” I realized it's because I've made myself too available. Perhaps this is one of the ways that I'm keeping myself from experiencing peace more often.


I was listening to a program on NPR about people and their smartphones. Did you know that every time your phone beeps, blips, or vibrates that it sends a “hit” of dopamine to your brain? That's right. Your phone is like a drug. We have become addicted to the dopamine.

What does that mean for us? That when we're at a stop light or on the couch and the phone doesn't ring, blip, or vibrate that we get bored--fast. We miss the rush that we feel from our dopamine hit. So, instead, we pick up the phone and log onto facebook or check your texts to see if we might have missed something. We've become drug addicts for our cell phones.

I'm equally guilty. I can't set the thing down, to be honest. Which is the reason I decided to do an experiment: What would it feel like if I turned off my cell phone during my vacation this week. Could I do it? Could I feel this sense of peace that I've only experienced at 4:00 in the morning?

I'm still in the middle of my vacation and still working with keeping the phone off. It has been a challenge But, I've been observing what I feel like physically and how my state of mind seems without the cell phone. It seems more peaceful. I wish that everyone could experience this because I think the world would be a better, less stressed-out place.

My challenge for you is to simply notice:

  • When do you experience a feeling of peace? What does it feel like physically?
  • What is your relationship with technology like? Are you constantly tuned in and plugged in?
  • Try to keep your phone off for a ½ day or a full day. What does that feel like?

May you experience peace.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Sweet Potato Pancakes


I am too busy this weekend to do a really thoughtful post, so I thought I would share the Sweet Potato Pancake Recipe that I made this evening from Moosewood Restaurant New Classics cookbook. You may gain new best friends or even attract a rich husband with this recipe (heehee).



1 cup peeled and grated raw sweet potatoes
1/4 to 1/2 freshly grated lemon peel (don't skip this...it's essential!)
1 large egg
1 cup milk
2 TBSP oil or melted butter
1 cup flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 tablespoons sugar

In a large bowl combine grated sweet potatoes, lemon peel, egg, milk, oil (or butter). In a separate bowl, stir together the flour, baking powder, salt, and sugar. Gently stir the dry into the wet ingredients. Do not overbeat or overstir. Set aside for 5-10 minutes.

Warm a lightly oiled skillet on medium-high heat. Pour a small amount of the batter into the skillet to form round pancakes. After about 2 minutes, when the pancakes are evenly dotted with bubbles and about half the bubbles have broken, flip the pancakes with a spatula. Cook the second side until lightly browned...about 1 minute. Continue in batches until the batter has been used.

Serve with Maple syrup, butter, sour cream or chunky salsa.

You will have more friends as a result of making this dish, be really popular, and I'm pretty sure people will find you more attractive (hahahahahaha). Seriously delicious. YUM!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

No Longer a Slave






Did you know that if a store mannequin were a real woman that she would be too thin to menstruate? Or that Americans spend more than 40 billion dollars a year on dieting and diet related products?


Last week I went to a talk at the University of Minnesota by Swami Veda Bharati. He is a long time yogi and student of Swami Rama. When I entered the auditorium I had a lot of judgment about the other attendees and the environment (that will be a whole separate blog), however, when he started talking things changed.


He said something at the beginning of his talk that was so profound: “The body is a fit vessel for the spirit of god within.” This got me thinking...

I realized at that moment that I have spent a large part of my life hating my body—it started in elementary school being the tallest girl in my class. Then it moved into being ashamed of my curves as a teenager. I have spent a lot of my life feeling like I wanted my body to be different than it is.


This feeling is only magnified by images of thin models in magazines and beautiful actresses on the movie screen. There seems to be a lot of pressure from popular culture to look at certain way. I made the decision about 7 years ago to stop reading fashion magazines like Cosmo and Vogue (you may look at my wardrobe and question that decision--haha).

Operation Magazine Removal” was followed years later by getting rid of my TV. These may seem like drastic moves to some, but I also believe that the TV was feeding me messages about what to buy and how to look.

I really feel strongly that the media perpetuates an aesthetic that is almost impossible to live up to. Rather than being grateful for what we have, we desire to be thinner, more beautiful, and better dressed.

My wish is to have a healthy body and a healthy mind. I do things to achieve this—I do yoga and cook homemade meals to care for my body. I read a lot and do meditation for my mind. I live as if I am treating my body as a vessel “for the spirit of god within.”

I refuse to be enslaved that the notion of being healthy means being movie star beautiful or model thin. I am grateful for a healthy body and mind.

A challenge for you:

  • Be aware of your “self talk” throughout the next week. Is your inner “story” telling you that you are “less than” or “not good enough” because you may not live up to what the media believes is beautiful.

  • Everyday start the day with gratitude for what you have. What aspects of your body and mind are you thankful for?

  • Ask yourself: How am I treating my body today as a vessel for the spirit of god within? What am I doing to nourish myself?



Sunday, August 1, 2010

Do No (or Less) Harm

















Recently I made the decision to eat a vegetarian diet (again). It feels a little like “groundhog day” since I have done this before, but there is reason I made this decision and I feel really good about it.

I have been working a lot with loving kindness and compassion in my meditation practice this year. Something that can feel a little foreign to my cold, black Norwegian heart (no offense intended for my fellow cold-hearted Norwegians) and the practice has moved me in ways I could not imagine.


This loving kindness and compassion practice is based in a Buddhist “prayer” called the 4 Immeasurables.



There are several translations but here is one example:
May all sentient beings have happiness and the causes of happiness
May they be free from suffering and the causes of suffering
May they never be separated from bliss, free from suffering
May they dwell in equanimity from from attachment, aversion, and prejudice

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I am sure there are several doctoral papers written on this subject and I'm not here to go all intellectual on you. But, working with this in my practice really got me to thinking...this prayer is a heart felt wish that ALL sentient beings be happy and free from suffering. The key words being “all” and “sentient”.
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That includes your friendly cows, pigs, chickens, etc. Animals that millions of Americans consume for dinner every day.

I believe that by eating animals I am causing them to suffer. They are being killed so they can provide food for people. I consume(d) them, therefore they suffered.

Here are some startling facts about the number of animals killed per year:

Chickens: 8.68 billion
Turkeys: 267 million
Cattle: 35.5 million
Pigs: 101 million

My decision to eat vegetarian extends beyond the “animal rights” stuff. Factory farming is just bad for the environment.

Here are some more facts:
  • It is estimated that 50% of the water consumed in the US is used to raise livestock.
  • It takes 100 times more water to produce a pound of beef that it does to produce a pound of wheat.
  • Agriculture is responsible for 70% waterway pollution. This is due to livestock farming.
  • 2/3 of the Rainforest in Central America has been cleared for cheap beef to sell to America Fast Food establishments
I could go on and on...but that would qualify as “ranting”, don't you think? I think the truth is that a lot of people don't know any better.

veg·e·tar·i·an

The term vegetarian is created from the Latin word vegetus meaning “lively”. I plan on keeping the animals “lively” by not eating them, but also keeping myself more “lively” (or just "alive") since vegetarians LIVE longer.


Make a change...
So, chances are you may be unwilling to give up the cheeseburger...but maybe you would be willing to eat a vegetarian meal 1x a week. Or perhaps give up fast food and save a rainforest in Central America. You can make a small shift in your eating and make a big difference on your health and the environment.

Regardless of what you decide, I know what is right for me is to do less harm to the animals and the environment.

Have you hugged a Vegetarian today?

Saturday, July 17, 2010

(Im)pure


pu·ri·ty

–noun 1. condition or quality of being pure; freedom from anything that debases, contaminates, pollutes, etc.

Imagine my surprise when I attended a new yoga class yesterday and the teacher started the class with a talk on purity.

Purity? Purity, to me, is such a loaded word bringing about thoughts of church, chastity, and perfection. "Who wants to be pure. Pure seems so boring!" I said in my head.

Then I thought--what in the heck do I think I'm doing with all this yoga and meditation? To some degree I AM purifying my body and mind (even if that was not my original intention).



A natural consequence of doing yoga is purifying the body through the breath.



A natural consequence of doing meditation is having a mind that is more calm and peaceful.

What I realized is that as a result of doing these practices I was making different choices about what I consume.

The Buddha taught that there are 4 kinds of "nutriments"--things which enable living beings to grow and maintain life--I think about them like nutrition we use to feed our mind and body.


4 Nutriments
1. Edible food and drink--the nutrients that sustain our bodies and feed our brain
2. Sense impressions--what we see, hear, taste, smell, touch and think
3. Volition--our inner motivation
4. Consciousness--everything that we have thought, said, or done throughout our lives

According to Buddhist monk Thich Nhat Hanh, through self reflection people can discover the nutriments that feed them and the nutriments that can lead to happiness or suffering.

Think about this in your own life:
-What messages do you feed your senses through the TV you watch or the magazines/books your read? Are they feeding your senses toxins or healthy messages?

-What foods/beverages do you consume that may be creating health or causing long term suffering?

"If you nourish yourself with four wholesome nutriments, consuming a healthy diet of edible food and drinks, sensory impressions, intention, and mental formations for your consciousness, then you, along with your loved ones, will benefit in concrete ways that are noticeable in your daily life."

From Savor by Thich Nhat Hanh







Make a commitment
. If you are interested in working with your own "purity" here are 2 ideas:
  • Choose one toxin in your life-something you feed your senses or your body. Try to eliminate or minimize your consumption of the toxin. Examine how it feels. Do you feel better? Do you feel completely irritated? Neither is right or wrong. Being aware is the key.
  • Try a yogic breathing exercise: Kapalabhatti breath (cleaning breath).


Begin seated. Take two normal breaths. Inhale. Now exhale, pulling in your abdomen and use sharp puffs. Repeat twenty times, keeping a steady rhythm and emphasizing the exhalation each time. Then inhale, exhale completely, inhale fully and hold your breath for as long as you comfortably can. Slowly exhale.






Sunday, June 27, 2010

Eggstatic about eggplant

I am currently obsessed with eggplant--the veggie and the color. I know, it seems strange. Some people crave a beautiful pair of shoes, but for me (right now) it's all about eggplant.

Up until 2 weeks ago I'd never actually eaten an eggplant. Never. However, in my newly identified eggplant craving I have experimented with an eggplant recipe that was delicious.

Test out this recipe and you may find that you, too, are eggstatic for eggplant.


Eggplant and couscous

Ingredients:

1 eggplant
1/2 cup couscous (whole wheat is better and more delicious)
Olive Oil
1 garlic clove
2 tablespoons slivered almonds
Tumeric (dash or 2)
Chili powder (dash or 2)
2 scallions, chopped
1 carrot, diced finely
3-4 baby bella mushrooms, chopped
2 tbsp raisins
1-2 tbsp chopped fresh cilantro

1. Cut the eggplant in half lengthwise and scoop out the "flesh" with a spoon. Chop it up and set aside.

2. Make the couscous by following the instructions on the back of the box.

3. Heat the olive oil in a pan. Add the garlic, almonds, tumeric, chili powder, scallions, carrot, mushrooms and raisins. Cook for 2-3 minutes.

4. Add the eggplant and cook for another 2-3 minutes. Add the cilantro and mix well.

5. Remove from the heat and mix together with the couscous.

6. Serve with a green salad. Tastes delicious!

Be well and show a little gratitude for that eggplant before you take your first bite.